Lost in the world.

Well hello folks. I'm in college now, just in case you were wondering. Very little free time, tis why its been a while since i've updating this here blog. but yup, im having a great time here in columbia. kinda.

Here at Mizzou I've just been doing my own thing. my own grocery shopping doing things on my schedule, and when i want to. just trying to shape myself into the adult that i am going to be after college. studying here and there. doing homework. meeting deadlines. running off a schedule that is set by dates two/three weeks away but you're so worried about if you're going to do well, you study two hours on that subject everyday, very time consuming (im kinda babbling, but oh well.) College surely isn't like high school. your teachers won't always remind you when something is due. You can ask for help, but it's really not the same. You have to keep up with the schedule and always study, study, study. Kinda sucks to be honest. i was never one to study. but i have to transform into a person who will sit with a pencil, notebook and textbook and take some notes. not my forte. but im learning to adjust and learning to do things on my own. so everything in the sense of education is good....for now. :D kidding, it'll go up from here, can't afford to go down.

Track tryouts are tuesday. a week or two ago i was excited. no worries i told myself. but as the day of tryouts started getting closer and closer. my nerves began to go crazy and i began to doubt myself (something i always do, but shouldn't). i question my ability or question whether im ready. question if what i have been doing will give me the tools i need to make the team. i know i'm ready for it, though. I'm ready to go out to that track on tuesday, give my all and make that team. That is step one to a huge goal of mines. no more doubting. only certainty. I'm ready. wish me luck.

not going to lie, im kinda lonely here at the zou, haven't really met anyone here. im scared if i do meet people that they will be friends that wont amount to anything. that i cant tell deep things to. i miss my friends. all going to different colleges and the most important of them all in texas. sucks being separated but it's a part of life i guess. hopefully i becoming more outgoing and go and meet people. but, i think ill be fine and do so.

Love, Peace, and Cheese